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20th-Mar-2007 12:05 pm - My Stress
You know that feeling where the weight of the world is getting the better of you? Yeah, well I'm there right now.

I have a play to learn lines for but whenever I try to get them into my head they don't fuckin' stick, a musical to learn songs for which fuck wit the lines for my other play, I have my parents nagging me to fuckin' death about getting my P's, I have the task of finding myself a job that I'll actually do good at, I have University (not doing much at the moment) that will soon add some stress with upcoming essays, I have a couple of friends who are annoying me by wanting to talk to me when I have stuff to do, and I am trying to deal with not talking to two of my best friends, Mel and Julie.

And I've had enough. I want to stop the world so I can catch my breath.

But no, things don't get easier, they'll only get harder.

Screw it. I hate it. I know I sound like I'm whinging and whining, but I had to get it outta my system.

I feel dead.
1st-Mar-2007 09:24 am - My World
Well, I sit here at University not at a class, and not feeling like going to a class as per usual.

This year is only a few days in an already I'm over its schedule. I am hardly even needed here which is the most annoying part. I'm here for an hour on Mondays, two hours on Tuesdays, two hours on Wednesdays and then randomly on Thursdays I'm here from 10am til 4pm. I mean, wtf @ that?!

Ah well, such is the life of a 2nd Year Uni student, hopefully I won't be here next year though. As I intend on giving this year my all so I can blow this dump and hit where life really is: Melbourne. Of course, laying it all on the line, but I feel confident. This year has been a real eye opener for me so far. Sure not as good as the start of last year. But its better than the start of 2005.

I have two plays coming up, one is Confusions where I play a character called Martin who's going to dinner with my wife, Polly, little does my character know she's been off in Rome sleeping with my fuckin' boss for three weeks. And my boss and his wife are also having dinner at the same resturant and are seated just behind us. Hilariously written with some very funny moments, if you can see it then you should. Its being performed late April I think.

My other play is a musical, Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat, my God... I've been to what? two or three rehearsals? And already the songs are drilling into my skull lol. And the assistant director, Rose, seems to think its funny to get them stuck BACK in my head when we're out and about and I'm trying to AVOID singing the songs. I'd fight back, but... she's the Assistant Director... so I may as well just cop it, at least it helps me learn.

And asides from that I don't have/want much of a life. My main focus this year is escaping Bendigo. I'll read all the texts, I'll kick ass on all the essays and I'll fluke all the tests/exams. Anything to get out of here. No offence to anyone who actually likes it here, but its a prison, and if you actually want to do something creative with your live (acting, writing, film-making) then you can't do it here. Plain and simple. The courses here are tailored towards Science, Law and Psychology. Not my favoured areas (although I did used to enjoy Psych)

Anyway, I have a class at 10am called "Women in Classical Greece and Rome" and I have no idea where it is. So I'd best be off to see if my friend, Chelsea, is around. Luckily she's in all three of my classes this semester, so if I ever get lost... she's only a text away! Now, if only I had credit to send said text. Haha... I owe my sister $8 of Telstra credit, and I owe Lisa $7 of Telstra credit (although I bet Lisa insists I don't have to pay her back because she sent it to me of her own free will, but I will anyway)

Ciao for now web world.

I will probably get home at around 5pm-ish and have to go out for rehearsals at 9pm-ish. Which means I get to see my musical friends again >_>  haha.

Corrupt
You corrupt
And bring corruption to all that you touch

Hold
You'll behold
And beholden for all that you've done

Spell
Cast a spell
Cast a spell on the country you run

And risk
You will risk
You will risk all their lives and their souls

And burn
You will burn
You will burn in hell
You'll burn in hell
You'll burn in hell
You burn in hell for your sins

Oh, our freedom's consuming itself
What we've become is contrary to what we want
Take a bow

Death
You bring death
And destruction to all that you touch

Pay
You must pay
You must pay for your crimes against the earth

Hex
Feed the hex
Feed the hex on the country you love

Yeah and beg
You will beg
You will beg for their lives and their souls

Yeah and burn
You will burn
You will burn in hell
You'll burn in hell
You'll burn in hell
You'll burn in hell
You'll burn in hell
Yeah you will burn for all your sins

1st-Jan-2007 05:11 am - My 2006, The People I Met

Now a special thing to the incredible people that I have met this year and three very special ones who I have known for longer but deserve a mention because of how much they’ve helped me.

Chelsea – Your so incredibly awesome, and definitely looking forward to many more enjoyable lectures in our second year @ LaTrobe. Please oh please let us be free of the evil that is John Penwill.

 

Sarah – Haha! Ben Tom and myself were right! You did have a connection to Bec! Even if we didn’t want to say anything in case we looked stupid. You’re a great person to hang around. Never a dull moment with Sarah.

 

Kat – Why did John have to destroy The Illiad? And he did it in monumental fashion… but we survived and passed. Hopefully you can survive the rest of the holidays living so far away from Bendigo (as fas I know you’re not missing much here). Keep on rocking.

 

 Eugene – You definitely are too cool for school, but University isn’t just school so you have to keep going or so help me *shakes fist* I’ll see you next year man.

 

Kinsley – It sucks that John was such a jerk to you so often with some things, especially considering you had pretty damn good reasons for him. But noooo heaven forbid John be an understanding individual. Keep being awesome. See you in 07’

Laura – An individual who understands the importance of Sudoku and how it can make ANY class so much more interesting than it normally is.

 

Erin – We met months ago but only really started talking like… 7 days ago… I mean that’s what I call slack, haha, on my behalf of course… not yours. Well I’m sure can cram those few months into a few weeks whenever I see you on MSN next! Also you’re my favourite 1 cent txt buddy, since you were awesome enough to give me $1 credit. And also, hooray for beds and parents.

 

Robski – Mr. Rob, what to say. You’ve put up with a lot from me… particularly from one party and that was more than many people have put up with from me, and despite you still bringing it up constantly you’re so cool that words don’t justify it. Plus you have the coolest house I’ve seen since the Henshall’s, but its too hard to judge which wins…

 

Ellen – See, I was respectful enough not to put the Henshall’s as a collective noun. Instead name by name, its been great meeting you and I still envy the fact your going to Queensland for a holiday. I wish I was, well enjoy the sun and keep being awesome.

 

Jess – We are in agreement, Chasing Cars is not a boring song. And in the future if anyone says so… they will meet our wrath! Keep on rockin’

 

Paul – We ruled the backstage, I don’t care what those other backstage people say. It was all us, and maybe a bit of them, haha. We’ve consistently been the same place 3 Saturday’s in a row. Its just how great we are.

 

Anne – Your very cool, and thanks heaps for that ride home from The Rooms after party. Normally I’d try to avoid that sort of stuff happening but on that particular evening my luck had struck me out.

 

Gerogie – Despite the amount of times Jess and yourself tried me to play along with your little game where her arms would replace yours I never caved in! I’m more strong-willed than people think.

 

Damask – I think I’d classify our meeting as this year? Well regardless its great knowing you. You can definitely make any situation so much more entertaining than it normally is. You rock.

 

Sarah – I might be able to beat your record set in Revolutionary Europe. And if I do, I will expect a medal or something. Hope you enjoy your holidays away from Girton. Make the most of them!

 

Steve – You’re the best Beast ever… in a good way, and I was your backstage hero and it will forever be remembered on the wall of the Capital Theatre, hooray! You rock.

 

Chris – You beat me at Poker, I mean a lot of people do, but you BEAT me at Poker, haha. You’re my favourite Gaston, and the girls all swoon over you.

 

David – We would have been so lost without your Poker set. Apologies for those few times I wasn’t there to get the curtain off your Cogsworth costume. But you got supreme vengeance against Cynthia. Good work!

Bec – I have only spoken to you a couple of times, but I can already tell you’re an incredible person. Was good seeing you at Rob’s yesterday even if it was only for a short time. Keep up the good work.

 

THE John Gavin – You see John Gavin, so many things can be said but so little sum up the sheer levels of “fucking awesome” that you radiate. Whenever I ask myself “W.W.J.G.D” I know the answer is be smooth and sing a song. Side note: The Monotones kick ass.

 

And I didn’t meet the following people this year, but I write about them to thank them for everything they’ve done for me this year.

 

Mel – In all honesty, you are the reason I kept going this year. No one else this year has given me more strength and self-belief than you. Anytime I was down you’d pick me straight back up, dust me off and send me straight back into the fray. And it was for the best as I’ve come out of it feeling so much stronger. Thanks for always being there for me to turn to, even in my darkest hours. You are the only person who knows pretty much everything about me. We’ll be friends for the rest of our lives, this much I know already. We have been through alot and yet we still which buttons we need to push on each other to get a smile. I'll be surprised if anyone ever understands me better than you bella. Keep being the beautiful person you are already and don't ever let any jerks bring you down, because your incredible in every single way. And when we meet this year, it will be grand, love you Melzi!

 

Julie – Julie, well Julie…you have done a few things for me that, you probably don’t realise this yet either, helped me see the brighter side of life. That quote you said to me at Maccas weeks ago “The world is what you make of it” has stuck with me, hence it being in my MSN name. Your and amazing person and even when I came down to Melbourne with Lisa to try and cheer you up in the end the roles were reversed anyway. I felt terrible about that but thanks for somehow being able to figure me out. I hope you enjoy the DVD copy of Beauty and the beast and am terribly sorry it took so long.

 

Lisa – Though the random errands have been less and less over the holidays they’ve been some of the highlights of my year. Whether it was washing the car, having Fish ‘n’ Chips for lunch, watching a DVD or going out to the shops because you needed something. You have always been an awesome friend, so incredibly lucky to know you. Who knows what would have happened to me if I didn’t have you here in Bendigo to support me. My other two important people are two hours away. And the love that is there for “Livin’ on a Prayer” will always be remembered, Bon Jovi is a legend. No doubt about it. Looking forward to another year of crazy adventures in 07’ also HAHA if you get stuck with me more at LaTrobe, that would suck lol.

 

If your not listed here I’m sorry, I’m doing this from memory and these are the people who have had the biggest effect on me this year. Also if I’ve forgotten you then I may have been counting us as meeting last year (which I have done for a few people so stay calm, haha)

 

Thank you everyone. My friends = my world.

Ever notice how some people have it harder in life?

Its not fuckin' fair, right now one of my dearest friends is going through one of these patches, I want to help so bad. She has my full support but things just keep getting worse.

Its one of those times when I want to freeze time and swap places with her, so she can have some relaxing time in my life... I mean I've got problems but she's got more and its not fair.

No matter how hard her life gets though her friends will always be here for me, and that mega includes me. I may live two hours away but she has my full support. If she ever needs me she just needs to say the word and I will drop whatever I'm doing to be there for her. She's one of those special friends you only meet once in your lifetime. One who puts you before herself (which she shouldn't do, because she needs to spoil herself occasionally :P ) but she won't listen to me, shes stubborn like me lol.

Anyway Mel, when you read this, I'm always here for you and in 2008 I'll be there for you more. Julie and me will invade and take you out alot, since its what Julie does and this time I'll be able to do it to someone else (Lucky you :P lol)

Hang in there angel, the light at the end of the tunnel can't be far off. And I'll be here to lead you to that light and beyond, never give up no matter how hard life gets. Don't let it win bella.

xoxo
Your dearest 2 hours away friend, CK aka Kyran.

Always here, never going anywhere
*hugs*
20th-Nov-2006 02:46 am - My Concern
Well I was talking to Melzi... but she all of a sudden decided she had to go :( I hope she is okay. I'm worried about her. She said she would brb then when she came back she had to go and I mean really had to go, was offline in moments... I hope she is okay, I hope I didn't upset her...

:( Sorry if I did anything wrong Melzi.
19th-Nov-2006 02:29 am - My Extremes
Well I've now experienced the highest of excitement, for the fact I was facing the chance of meeting Mel on the day of my Muse concert... to the letdown of now only having a boring Muse concert to go to, well... if Julie goes it'll be more interesting, otherwise meh.

I messed up again, a habit I have.

Later
14th-Nov-2006 01:42 am - My New Layout
What do you think of my new layout Melzi? Like I told you, I tried putting a Cloud/Aerith pick on the background ("Let me be your wings" one) but I couldn't read the text properly... lame.

But for now this is what I have...
30th-Oct-2006 04:57 am - My Confusion
A friend on the weekend said to me that "The world is what you make of it..." so I have to wonder... since when did I make it such a nightmarish place where dreams never come true for me? I mean, I'm not a bad person I don't deserve what this world gives me but it still decides to kick me while I'm down and what the hell for? Nothing, thats what...

I should be in a good mood because today I handed in my last essay for the year, but I'm not because I know it was shit and I estimate my mark will be about a D, that seems to be my average for the year. No one is on MSN to talk to, well one person is but she is busy. I have nothing to do except think... I can't even write.

Meh, out.

"I just don't know, how to say how I feel.
Those three words I've said too much but not enough"
-Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol
29th-Oct-2006 03:37 am - My Stress
Its amazing, from feeling great last night after hanging out with Julie I've been reduced to a stressed wreck because of stupid fuckin' gay shit re-enrolment for fuckin' gay stupid shit LaTrobe Bendigo. And then a gay 2,500 essay about a topic I don't give a fuck about.

But at least once thats done I can focus on finding a course I'll like.

Meh, I'm stressed.

Later
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